Saturday, September 29, 2007 @ 1:42 AM


i cant believe what i have done for the past 2 days..

i bought 3 pairs of shoes!!!! i am mad. two is of the same design.. in different colors. oh well..
and guess what! i came home and realised, i have another pair of pumps i bought 3 weeks back that is also not worn. now i have 4 pairs of new shoes.. hmmm..

anyway, i have a thousand and one thing had been gg through my mind.. sometimes, i really feel like taking a break.. like.. just stopped everything i am doing and runaway.. i dont know whether is it because this period of time i am in is really a time of waiting, a time of stretching, a time of faith.. and its uncomfortable.. really uncomfortable.. but i know i cant stopped.. i know i cant and i just got to keep on keeping on! but no matter what happens, God is good! i love it at times when i talked to people, and when i dont know what to say or reply, i can just say in my heart, "God, i dont know what to say.. teach me what to say" then as i later start talking again, there will flow a revelation for that person and sometimes, it is a revelation for me too! he is a cool God!

i was reminded of this phrase this morning as dad drove me down for work, "the message is sacred, but the method is not"

have a good week all! pay day is coming! and i am happy!

Wednesday, September 26, 2007 @ 9:45 AM


i am so damm pissed off with my brother! omg! his attitude!! ARGH.. nvm..

anyway, i dont know whether is it me or what.. my mum just always seems to know once my wallet is running low in cash.. like today, i woke up earlier and all.. did my usual stuff.. bathe, eat breakfast.. then suddenly, my mum just pass me a fifty dollar without even me asking! surprise surprise! cool~~ i like such surprises.. i think afterall, like what people say.. a mum knows their child well.. even without me breathing a word of being poor.. she just knows it.. hahahas.

mr cisco keith tan, our date. :))

Tuesday, September 18, 2007 @ 1:49 AM


had a relaxing day today...

went to town to teach vanessa accounting.. i think i can be an accounting teacher.. i have taught 2 person accounting for the past 2 weeks.. hahas. anyway, i am glad i got a chance to teach vanessa accounting.. manage to talk to her a little bit about something which i shall not say here to embarass her or whatsoever.. yep.. went to esplanade to study @haagan daz(spelling?).. we were talking and talking.. kinda got into the topic about love relationship.. i came to conclude that in every relationship.. no matter how much both parties like each other.. there is still one party that will be giving/loving more.. love percentage between both parties will never be 50-50.. it is often maybe.. 70-30? 80-30? 90-10? one party will often be contributing more then the other..

last night.. i nearly gave up.. gave up everything.. BUT GOD told me, " he(i) shall never permit the righteous to be moved.(ps55:22)" so God, i am trusting you. in whatever battle i am facing or will be facing, i put my trust in you.. people may give me evil eyes, people may speak bad of me.. even friends may do so.. BUT GOD, i love you.. and thats all i need to know..

"i wanna hold you.. till the fear in me subsides.."

tomorrow, exciting exciting exciting. :))

Labels: i cant wait for tuesday..

Sunday, September 16, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


i am so falling in love with the click five, maryjane.
thanks guang qiang for the cd! can u pls give me the cover!! i am so in love with the lead singer. and guess what! HE IS ONLY 17!! i stand a chance of being his girl!!! ahh. i am only kidding.

mary jane

I didn't cry the day you moved away
I didn't think that I could feel this pain
Until I saw the stranger that was you
Whatever happened to our innocence
And the somethin' that you said about being friends
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothings gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary Jane
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh

I need to wake up from this state of mind
The situation is the same kind
I gotta get your memory out of my head
Would you catch me if I had to fall
Would you even find the time for that at all
Tell me how
Help me say the words out loud

Could it be
That nothing's gonna change
Time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary Jane
Ooh ooh
Ooh ooh

Cause time has taken back
Everything I thought we had

Mary Jane..

Could it be
Nothing's gonna change
Cause time has got a way of taking back
Everything you thought you had
Can you see
The girl you used to be
The one I lost when I let go of you
Oh whatever happened to
Mary Jane
Ooh ooh
Oh whatever happened to
Ooh ooh
Mary Jane

yesterday was such another awesome day! heard from cat a great good news!! God, thank you! also, thanks for untieing the knot in me. like how a dad would always bend down and help their kid to untie the knot in their shoelaces if it got jam.. you not only untie the knot, you tied a ribbon for me too.. :) thanks!

head up, straight ahead.

Friday, September 14, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


Examination Results

Student : 0702639F TAN YAN BING
Academic Year : 2007/2008, April Semester
Course : BUSINESS/ LOGISTICS & OPERATIONS MANAGEMENT/MARKETING

Cumulative Grade Point Average obtained to-date : 3.3

Tuesday, September 11, 2007 @ 1:45 AM


just finished watching part 1 of huan huan ai aka, why why love.. got so addicted to that show! one of the male lead actor is SUPER charming! needless to say, i like the elder brother more.. the businessman type.. yep.. my dream guy would be something like that.. hahhas. oh yes, i wish

anyway, that show really got me thinking about some love mindset.. at the end of the day, would you fall in love with someone you can feel so so comfortable with, like being able to just joke, play around, burp into one another's face or would you fall in love with the guy that looks perfect from head to toe but yet, you cant be really yourself when you are in front of him or her.. half of the time, you are trying to be someone "perfect" in that person's eyes.. which one would you choose??? i wonder which one i would choose.. the one that is perfect is really so hard to resist.. hahahs.

you guys wont want to know my answer.. cos it will be, i will wait for the someone that is perfect from head to toe AND also he is someone i feel comfortable with.. hahahs.

anyway, had a fun day today. went to city hall for bowling, pool and arcade. its crazy i know. hahahs. ask jeff. i actually suggested bowling only. hahahas. but anyway, i nearly won jeff in pool.. of course, he gave me ALOT of leeway. hahahas. and i beat junjie!!!!!! with real talent ok!AHH!!! i couldnt believe my eyes.. i improved so much in just half an hour. hahahas.

i know i am blogging random stuff.. cos firstly, i have NOTHING to do tml. and when i say nothing.. i mean it... secondly, i have some thoughts in my mind.. its bothering me... thirdly, i am experiencing something named pure boredom.. maybe i shall go check out whether huna huan ai part 2 is out..

i finally found.. you and i collide..

Sunday, September 09, 2007 @ 11:05 AM


you know how fantastic God is.

i was really upset when i know i cant catch high school musical 2 on disney this sunday because of an outing i am having with my ushers. searched high and low for someone to record it for me but to no avail. BUT GOD, turned things around. yesterday night, my bro asked my sis and i whether have me caught secret. cos he bought the pirated one for his friend. hahahas. then he said, i also got high school musical 2. when i heard those words, i was like... OMG! ARE U SERIOUS?!?!??!!!! he was like yeah. I SO SO SO SO LOVE HIM!!! AHHH! HE IS DA MAN! hahahahs. so of course, i watched it immediately after he took the dvd out. HE ROCKS! God rocks too! he saw how despondent i was and took care of my every need and want. :DDD

in case you wonder how come the pirated dvd for high school musical 2 is out, the US have shown it already. singapore is always slower by 1937974 years.

i am so so elated. :))

Saturday, September 08, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


i am so so so so fed up!! AHH!!!!!! i feel like killing my maid!!!!! my clothes are missing AGAIN!! AGAIN!! AGAIN!!

i am trying so hard now to keep my blood boiling below 100 degrees...
argh...

had such a long day at sentosa today. but it was really fun and exciting to be able to helpout as one of the game masters. really taught me much more about leading games. i am glad the people enjoyed themselves. didnt get any sunburnt, but people say they can tell that i went to the beach cos i am really red.. which i dont think so.. hahahahs. but anyway, thats not the point. after sentosa, headed down to ymca for cg! the pst message preached was really good. it really got me thinking about some stuff.. which i wanna pray more about it first... after cg, thank God for my sister who came down and drove me home!! such a blessing! cos i am really really exhausted.. and with the big heavy bag i am carrying.. i can just die.. but she turned up!! yay! not only that, we went over to 85 market to makan first before heading home.(for the whole entire day, my most filling meal is three takopachi)
got to drink my fav ice lemon tea!! coolness! i love it!

blah blah blah.. cant find my pants.. fed up.. and decide to blog..

the end. :)

he looked stunningly good today. :))

Tuesday, September 04, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


i shall just stop defending myself.
thanks for ripping apart my healed wound. thanks.
you can be just a little more insensitive.

God, i lift it up to you.

@ 8:45 AM


phew~ such a hectic weekend i had. sentosa, service, sot graduation. i am so so tired that i actually slept from 530pm to 930pm today. hahahas. i was so so moody when i woke up. thank God i didnt throw any missy temper when i know that my brother did not remember to pack dinner for me.

i really like what the sot grad preached today. [work=force x distance] using the power/force of the holy spirit, we go the distance for christ! and another thing he said that caught my attention, opportunities are doors that are marked when PUSH! i should stop hiding. i should step forward and step up! bing, dont be afraid to push at opportunities that comes to you! grab it! if not, it will end up in someone else's hands. jeff just called.. they were serious.. i am glad and really honoured to be able to do this. God, wisdom! i need! i want to grab this opportunity! i will give my bestest shot in this!

and also, i really want to thank God for sebast. something he said on saturday really made my day.. he quoted, "i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." when i pushed him for better results in his studies. then i was saying, theres a tune for that verse you and blah blah blah.. then he said, "i remembered this cos you shared this with me during bible study." i was really touched when i heard that. frankly speaking, i dont think i am that good when i gave him BS. cos he is my first student and i dont even have proper training from my leader. what my leader did was that i shared half a lesson with him and he evaluated me. thats all. then off i go, giving sebast BS. hahas. exciting huh? yup. i am glad he got something despite an inexperience BS teacher. indeed, i can do all things through christ who strengthens me. :DD sebast, keep striving more for God! i can see that change in your life and i am really happy for you!

oh.. i miss joanne so much! girl, i am so sorry i have to cancel meeting up on saturday! i am really busy with church on saturday! one day alright! one day we will meetup!

Saturday, September 01, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


before i start ranting, here is a little something
*ahems*
i promise myself i will clean up my room tonight. amen.

you know what exams are O-V-E-R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*screams!* *party poppers!* *fireworks*

wanted to go blading today with kel, but mr rain decides to visit. so... plans cancelled. went to town with my sis instead.

is just random shopping with a few buys.. my sister went to do her hair with the blessings from her friends.. while waiting for her, theres this cute little young boy age 5(i think) was also waiting for his dad. so you know kids.. they cant sit still. so he kept running around the pillar, standing at the entrance of the salon doing funny faces and noise.. i was just sitting down, looking at him... hes so adorable! i bet he will grow up into a good looking guy. so, anyway, little kiddo got tired of running around the pillar.. so he decides to come and play with me.. like most people know, i dont really like kids and i dont have any talent in playing with them.. hahahs. so he hid behind the pillar and start popping his head over and shouted "rah!" at me hahahs. little kiddo thought i would play with him.. but no, i didnt.. cos i dont know how to.. hahhas. but he persisted.. little kiddo kept doing the same thing.. hahas. so i kinda reacted to him and "rah!" back at him. hahahs damm funny. can you imagine.. two person who both are waiting for someone in the same salon, kept "rahing!" at each other. hahahs. he went back to his mummy after a few rahing. so i sat there silently again.. hahahs. the next thing i know, little kiddo came back with a phone in his hand. it was in camera function. hahahs. he first went up near to his dad to take a photo of him.. after that, he used that camera to take a photo of me!! hahahahs. i seriously do not know how to react.

i wore my greeny out today. 3 person stepped on it! i so much feel like boxing them! *patience*

anyway, i got tagged by junhui. so here is it sister. hahahs. :D


Rules of the Game:
1) Start off with 10 weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself.
2) People who got tagged must write the things of Rule 1 on own blog.
3) Choose 6 people to be tag and list their name
4) No tagging back!!

1. I shit whenever i see kelly. ahahs. she is my shit agitator.

2. I am good with directions. (alot of people dont know this. hahahs)

3. I cant wear normal demin skirts. i look fat in them.

4. I only have two skirts in my closet. :))(surprised eh?)

5. I am sadistic towards ants. i like to smack them and leave their dead bodies there

6. I talk to my soft toy. yes.

7. i HATE lollipops.

8. I dont sleep in aircon room. (cos my nose bled whenever i sleep in airconditioned room when i was younger)

9. my house dining table is prolly older then you. provided you are 21 years and under. hahahs

10. i am an angel. :DDDDDD